Friday, November 13, 2009
Friday's Practice
As you move your bodies this morning thread each pose together with deep sounded breath. If you breathe ujjayi correctly you can sweat just sitting comfortably! Hear the whisper of the breath as you constrict the back of your throat. Don't forget to keep your mouth closed - keep all that heat inside of you!
Start standing in Tadasana.
3 Sun Salute A's
3 Sun Salute B's
Handstand (at the wall) 10+ breaths
Standing Shoulder Stretch
Vinyasa to Down Dog
Pigeon both sides, vinyasa between to Down Dog
High Plank, Vashistasana Left Side to 3-legged Dog, Right Leg Up
Right Foot Forward Thigh Stretch Left Leg
Runner's Stretch or Hanuman
High Plank, Vashistasana Right Side to 3-legged Dog, Left Leg up
Left foot forward Thigh Stretch Right Leg
Runner's Stretch or Hanuman
Badakonasana/Paschimottasana
Savasana
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Promise in progress
Sometimes I wish I could flip a switch and the change would be made. But I also know that wouldn’t be as rewarding. It’s the things in life that take time and honest dedication that bring about the most abundant rewards. I practiced violin for almost 15 years before playing at Carnegie Hall. This promise I have made to myself and really to others is worth all the time in the world. After just one month I see a change. It may be small but it is there. I may be able to count the number of attempts I have made but now there is something to count, something that counts.
If you feel that you have lost motivation, just take a look around. When I woke up this morning my dog Ysabelle, luckily was not sleeping on my head but next to my head, gave me a morning kiss. Then came the smile from my husband. Our mornings are filled with thoughts shared aloud and lots of laughter. We’ve had mornings like this for over five years now but it was just this morning that I realized our mornings together are sacred. I fully participated in each moment and each moment was truly beautiful. There wasn’t anything that was necessarily different about this morning just that I chose to see the beauty that has been right in front of my eyes.
As we reach the end of our 32 day journey together, I am realizing that 32 days is just not enough. However, 32 days is enough to see that promises can be made, promises can be kept and most importantly promises can be positive affirmations of who we are. Now we just need to keep the progression going. I want to, don’t you?
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Listening generously
I was feeling bad yesterday because I hadn't been participating in the Promiseland as much as I would like but then I read through the posts of this past week, they were so thoughtful, personal they engaged me, I related to each and every one, Mitchel's bad day, Liz's fire, Katie's mantra, Lisa's peace, Nicole's winding and then realized I was participating, I was listening with my heart, I am not only reading or hearing the words that people say, but I am opening myself up to allow their expression, I am sharing in their experiences, I am drawing upon the inspiration of my community (see, my promise is fulfilled ;)). I know that I have learned to listen by sitting quietly, hearing all my thoughts come and go, by taking the time to practice and learning to live in the present moment. That right now is all that matters (and right now, and right now). So, perhaps I am not participating in the promiseland live, I share so much of the feelings, the emotions, the meaning of this experience I am more involved than I really knew. So as the week comes to an end and we move past the physical experience of the promiseland, it will be all the realizations all the lessons, all I've "heard" that will stay with me, it lives in my heart, it is part of my truth.
Love,
Vicky
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Winding Down
Take a comfortable seat.
Close your eyes.
Soften your face, create a space in between your teeth.
Be in the company of your breath.
Listen to the breath.
hamsa
The breath as it's own natural mantra.
hamsa
Sit for the five minutes listening to ham (inhale) sa (exhale)
I am that.
Listen.
Start to recieve the breath.
Start to experience your stillness.
When you really listen to the breath and you start cultivate awareness and experience stillness, the mind becomes present, relaxed, alive and whole hearted - all at once,
then you will start to recognize your soul, the voice that speaks your deepest and most genuine desires.
Listen to your breath.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Thoughts on Peace
Thoughts on Peace
Among my first thoughts when I read the word “peace” on the slip of paper which I picked at random out of the basket at the Joint the other week was of a stunning photograph that appeared in the New York Times Magazine (I think) a few years ago. In the photo, a woman sat in the heart of
A second thought was of a story we used to listen to in the car when my children were younger. The tale, whose specific details I will misremember, told of a poor farmer and his wife who hired a wise old man to help quiet their noisy household of crying children and howling dogs. The family did not have much money, but they were so desperate, they scrounged and collected a small sum to pay the wise man if he was successful in helping them. One by one, the wise man brought the farmer’s animals from the barn into the house, adding to the noise and chaos rather than reducing it. Then, just when the noise became unbearable, he lead the animals back to the barn, again one by one, and gradually returned the house to the state in which he had found it, crying children, howling dogs in tact. Even though there was no difference from where they started, the farmer and his wife thanked the wise man profusely and happily paid him the sum of money. They had unwittingly found peace as they learned to experience the same world differently.
Yoga combines these two pathways to peace. Focusing on the rhythms and sounds of breath immediately transports the mind to a still place. Often before the body moves into the day’s first asana, a brief centering has already quieted the constant hum of thoughts, pleasant (a greeting from a friend, the wag of a tail), mundane (a grocery list, an errand to run), and stressful (a pile of bills to pay, an argument from the night before with a loved one), that can so easily crowd one’s mind. Further rhythms - chants of om or a series of sun salutations - sustain the stillness. Then, the focus and exertion of a strong physical practice fills the heart with desire and the mind with a willingness to experience the extraordinary in movement that is familiar and knowable.
Coming to practice at the Joint is a literal crossing over a threshold of peace (om shanti). But the peace found there is also a learned state of mind, a practiced one, which is available throughout the day, on or off the mat and inside or outside any set of four walls. It is both nourishing and necessary; it can be as simple as recognizing the peace of a beautiful day or as deliberate as invoking a calming mantra when your heart is breaking. This is the peace that yoga brings to me.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Practice for Monday
What A Glorious Day!
Due to my early bedtime an early rise was inevitable. I awoke about 4:30am. I put my eye pillow over my eyes and breathed deep for 100 breaths. I figured this would either send me off to sleep or better prepare my day. As I lay there I thought about doing an early morning practice in my living room, maybe some candles or a fire burning. When I removed my eye pillow it was still pitch black in the bedroom and I rolled over and tried to go back to sleep. Alas, my husband began to snore and I thought, practice it is!
I tiptoed around the house, both to give my husband the space to sleep but also to keep the house to myself for as long as I could. I lit some candles and made a fire. What a gift to practice fireside in a dark room. I breathed deep ujjayi breath and sparked my own fire as I listened to the wood crackle. Every so often I took a peak at the fire and was soon captured enough by it's beauty that I would pause my moving practice and simply stare and smile.
After some poses close to the floor I stepped into my first lunge. As I reached my arms overhead, Voila! The sky was lit up pink as the sun began to rise. How luck am I? That is all i could think. Smiling, breathing, taking in the colors of the sky, the sound of the fire, the cool air by my fingers above and the warmth of the fire on my toes below. It surely doesn't get better than this. Simplicity at its fullest.
I talked a lot this week about mindfulness practice. Earlier in the week I read a great quote: "Mindfulness isn't difficult. What's difficult is to remember to be mindful." (I highly suggest reading the article this quote appears in http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/your-brain-work/200910/the-neuroscience-mindfulness)
The article talks about truly taking everything in, eyes open, senses aware, enjoying it all. I did this as I practiced this morning. I didn't practice the most difficult poses but I practiced with every sense involved. I would break from movement, add a log, watch the colors shift. I thought of my practice as a reflection of this fire, a nice bed of embers maintining my awareness and the layers of breath and movement keeping the flames excited. My heart was excited. My mind calm. My body at ease. I practiced for a while, even as my husband awoke and shared the room with me. I took his presence in as much as the fire, mindfully, aware, with a greater sense of gratitude.
I finally sat to close practice. As I sat in agnistambhasana I realized I was in firelog pose. How appropo. I decided to close with this posture. A fine ending I thought. Next I settled in to a comfortable seat. Eyes open I watched the fire. Suddenly I am warmed from a glow beyond. I look to my left and out the window is the sun rising above the trees, perfectly aligned with the seat I took in front of the fire. It just keeps getting better. Simple. Beautiful. Quiet. The words, "I am at peace," came to mind and I made this my mantra. I repeated it over and over not knowing if I was more warmed by the words or the sun or the fire. I was being cradled by warmth, a deep knowing that everything is ok, that I really am at peace. The sun seemed to bounce with glory and happiness inside of it's glowing rim. I have never seen the sun dance but I am now convinced it does and with great pride.
My husband noticed me staring out the window and came to see the sun. He asked if I was praying to the sun for good health. I just smiled. He gets me. I break from "I am at peace" for one moment and again repeat to myself, How lucky am I? He stays near, suddenly moved to rearange some books on the shelves, clean up the dining room table from the night before. I am not disturbed. I am mindful. I am grateful.
I am entranced by the mantra, the fire, the sun. I could've sat there all day. Instead I say for a few more minutes. With great gratitude I thanked God for this glorious day.
I was reminded of some simple lessons this morning: Carve out a special space to practice. Keep it simple. Smile. Breathe deep. Have Gratitude. Be Mindful. Take It All In.
5 Minute Practice: Breath in the Positive Momentum
So instead of an asana today, my suggestion is…
#1 Take 3 minutes to reflect on 2 concrete positive things that you have noticed about yourself since practicing yoga. These 2 things can be physical, mental, spiritual… what ever you notice.
Below are some examples as idea starters:
-“The pain in my shoulder has significantly decreased.”
-“I am stronger”
-“I am more loving towards people that I care about”
-“I have forgiven a loved one”
-“I am less reactive”
-“I am more grateful”
-“I am more self aware”
-"I matter" (borrowed from Liz's class)
#2 For the next 3 minutes, close your eyes and really breath in this positive momentum that you have identified. And just be with this for a few moments. Breath deeply… And observe.
Use the positive momentum as inspiration to keep practicing :)
Saturday, November 7, 2009
"Posing" with a Smile :-)
Sun Salutation A - x2
Sun Salutation B - x3
Step back to Downward Dog
Low Lunge w/Right leg - hold 3 breaths
Jump Switch legs & hold Low Lunge 3 breaths
Jump switch legs & raise torso for High Lunge - hold 3 breaths
Bend back/Left leg at knee for Crescent Moon - hold 5 breaths
Exhale hands to ground & straighten both legs for Parsvottanasana - hold 5 breaths
Jump Switch legs & raise torso for High Lunge - hold 3 breaths
Bend back/Right leg at knee for Crescent Moon - hold 5 breaths
Exhale hands to ground & straighten both legs for Parsvottanasana - hold 5 breaths
Step Left leg back, Plank Pose
10 slow Push Ups
Push back to Downward Dog
Bring Right leg high and swing it under the body for Runner's Stretch - hold 5 breaths
Step Right leg back to Downward Dog
Repeat on Left side
Step Right leg forward for Warrior III - hold 3 breaths
Release hands to floor for Splits Pose w/Left leg high - hold 3 breaths
Exhale Uttanasana
Vinyasa
Step Left leg forward for Warrior III - hold 3 breaths
Release hands to floor for Splits Pose w/Right leg high - hold 3 breaths
Exhale Uttanasana
Vinyasa
Walk feet to top of mat, lie down for Happy Baby - Hold 5 breaths
Come up to a seated position for Janu Sirsana on both Left & Right sides - hold 5 breaths
Separate both legs for a Seated Wide Leg Straddle resting head on a block
Remain here for Savasana - 5 minutes (with a smile!)
Friday, November 6, 2009
Friday Mini Practice
It’s Friday. It’s a reason to feel joy. Even when I was jobless and school-less, hanging around the house in my pajamas, Friday held some sort of excitement. There is this magic about the end of the week, as if the potential (promise?) of something great happening on Saturday or Sunday is the best part of the weekend. Let’s use the Friday energy for a heat-building burst:
Start in Downward Facing Dog - 5 breaths
Step forward with your right foot to a low lunge – 3 breaths
Step forward with your left foot to meet the right in uttanasana – 3 breaths
Step back with your right foot to a low lunge – 3 breaths
Sun Salutation A x 3
5 Swinging Dogs with right leg forward
From Down Dog, step right foot forward to Warrior 2 – 2 breaths
Vashistasana on the left hand, left foot – 2 breaths
Vinyasa (Plank, Caturanga, Cobra, Downward Facing Dog)
5 Swinging Dogs with left leg forward
From Down Dog, step left foot forward to Warrior 2 -2 breaths
Vashistasana on the right hand, right foot – 2 breaths
Vinyasa
Step forward with the right foot to Parsvakonasana – 3 breaths
Straighten right leg to Trikonasana – 3 breaths
Step forward to Ardha Chandrasana – 3 breaths
Uttanasana
Vinyasa
Repeat on left side
Handstand against the wall (or in the middle of the room!)
Try to hold for at least 3 breaths, repeat as many times as you like!
Child’s Pose for 10 breaths
Namaste
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Did you make time today?
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The Lotus in Your Closet
3 - 5 few sun salutations
Shoulder stretch with hands clasped behind back, folding
A handstand or 5 jumping dogs or hold forearm plank for 10 breaths
and then pick one or two standing poses of your choice and make sure you get them in on both sides (you can move from a wide stance or add a vinyasa in between)
Lower the knees and spend 5 slow ujayi breaths in child's pose.
That's your warm-up.
Time to move to your closet.
No matter how organized and efficient you may be, chances are you are holding on to clothing in your closet that you don't wear and certainly don't need. For us as individuals, the unnecessary stuff we hold onto often dilutes the stuff that holds greater meaning for us. For example, in thought, we often crowd the more meaningful thoughts with distracting chatter. What if we could be more efficient with the way we frame our thinking? Simplify. Clarify. In our closets, maybe we can't see that awesome shirt that could use a night out 'cause there's just too much other stuff crowding it. This is the yoga - to make the choice if what is worth keeping and what we need to put back into the universe and get rid of.
So today, take one or two items from your closet or bureau (start with one or two and maybe you'll surprise yourself with where this goes) and put them in a bag to bring to Goodwill or Salvation Army (there are deposit bins all over Fairfield County). The greater benefit of this practice is that as we simplify for ourselves, our personal unnecessary stuff may be great stuff for someone else. As we transition into chillier nights, there are plenty of people all around us who could use that sweater or shirt that we haven't worn in 3 years. Give them the gift. Dakshana. Follow through with this promise. Place the bag in your car so that you make sure it gets to where it's needed.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
A nightcap of sorts
remember when you get to the floor: roll your inner thighs in and outer thighs out, and widen the back of your pelvis behind you, to release the groins down and back to keep the pelvis in optimal alignment.
start with 3 sun A moving with the breath, pausing in down dog for 3 breaths.
right leg Parsvottanasana 5 breaths
right leg lo lunge 5 breaths
bend left knee down - straighten right leg runners stretch 5 breaths
bend right knee - left leg thigh stretch - be sure to grab the foot from the inside edge 5 breaths
down dog
left leg Parsvottanasana 5 breaths
left leg lo lunge 5 breaths
bend right knee down - straighten left leg runners stretch 5 breaths
bend left knee - right leg thigh stretch - be sure to grab the foot from the inside edge5 breaths
down dog
float forward plank 5 breaths
bring knees to the floor and top of the head to the floor - (like a lifted child's pose) clasp hands behind your back and stretch away from you 5 breaths
press up and back down dog
walk your feet thru your hands, come to sitting
Janu Sirsasana right leg folding , left leg straight folding in between the legs. 5 breaths
Janu Sirsasana left leg folding , right leg straight folding in between the legs. 5 breaths
Baddha Konasana 5 breaths
Agnistambhasana right leg on top 5 breaths
sticking with the right leg Ardha Matsyendrasana 5 breaths
unravel straighten and shake legs out
Agnistambhasana left leg on top 5 breaths
sticking with the left leg Ardha Matsyendrasana 5 breaths
unravel straighten and shake legs out
Paschimottanasana fold over 2 straight legs 5 breaths
laying down
Ananda Balasana ( happy baby) 5 breaths
Savasana ahhh........
Halloween, Yoga & The Promiseland
An offering from PJ Papale:
I attended a lecture by John Friend (the founder of Anusara Yoga) last Friday night at Tulane University. John spoke about the origins of Halloween and the significance of this time of year as relates to yoga. In times past, 3000 years ago or so, the Celts celebrated a holiday called Samhain (pronounced sow-in). This festival commemorated the “end of summer”, a middle time between the Autumn Equinox (our end of summer around September 20th) and the Winter Solstice (our beginning of winter around December 20th) when our days start to become dominated more by darkness and less by daylight.
This is a time of transition, similar to dawn and dusk, similar to the pause between our inhales and our exhales. These times of transition are important in spiritual practices as they are an auspicious (marked by good omens; the promise of success or happiness) time when practitioners can connect more with themselves and with the divine. It is a time to reflect on our lives, on what has transpired, and to set some intentions for the future. The Celts and other cultures also used this time to connect with the spirits and memories of their ancestors, and to avoid harmful spirits. It was a time to honor those who had gone before by visiting their graves and bringing them gifts. It was a hallowed (holy; regarded with great respect) time, thus the night before was the eve of all hallows or Halloween.
John explained that as yogins, this time of year affords us a great opportunity to reflect on our lives and set some good intentions for the coming months. It is a time to connect with those who have gone before us for we are a part of them. It is an auspicious time that affords the chance to connect with our spiritual side and plant the seeds of a promise for the future.
In following this advice, I have been reflecting on my parents these past couple of days. My relationship with my parents both while they were alive and even now that they are not has been a struggle. My usual thoughts were that they did not give me what I needed emotionally or spiritually, and that I suffer because of it. However, after thinking about John’s lecture, it occurred to me that, hey, they are my ancestors, that I am a part of them and they me, and that maybe, just maybe, I can shift my position from a judgmental one to an accepting one. Can I embrace them as my parents with all of their faults, drop my critical thoughts, focus on how they loved me, and become more whole in the process? I think so. And, what promise does that hold for me?
Take Ten. Find Zen.
Come into downward facing dog and close your eyes.
Take 10 deep breaths here.
Right leg forward, high lunge for 5 breaths. Step back to downward facing dog.
Left leg forward, high lunch for 5 breaths. Step back to downward facing dog.
In hale forward to high plank. Exhale lower down chaturanga dandasana. Inhale to cobra for 5 breaths. Exhale downward facing dog.
Repeat plank, chaturanga & cobra series two more times ending in downward facing dog.
Walk or hop forward uttanasana. Inhale urdhva hastasana. Exhale tadasana.
Take your feet mat distance apart and parallel, clasp your hands behind you for a shoulder stretch.
1 Sun Salutation A ending in downward dog.
Inhale forward to plank. Exhale lower down to your belly. Clasp your hands behind you. Inhale lift your chest forward and up, shalambhasana for five breaths. Exhale back to downward dog.
1 Sun Salutation A ending in downward dog.
Pigeon pose on the right side. Then pigeon thigh stretch. Switch sides.
Camel pose for five breaths.
Downward facing dog with knees bent for 5 breaths. Then legs straight for 5 breaths.
Take a comfortable seat, close your eyes, and take 10 breaths.
Namaste.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Monday, Monday
Om 3 times (if you have never om'd on your own give it a try, such a lovely way to feel the vibration and affirm yourself)
3 Surya Namaskar A (Sun Salutation A)
3 Surya Namaskar B (Sun Salutation B)
Virabhadrasana II (Warrior II right toes forward)
Trikonasana (Triangle right toes forward)
Wide straddle (Prasarita Paddotanasana) with a shoulder stretch
Virabhadrasana II Warrior II (Left toes toward back of mat)
Trikonasana - Triangle (left toes toward back of mat)
Prasarita Paddotanasana (wide straddle brings your hands to the floor)
Optional: Tripod headstand
Vinyasa
Bada Konasana
Upavishta Konasana (wide straddle sitting)
Passchimotanasana (seated forward bend)
Seated meditation (*suggestion count 25 breaths inhale and exhale is one breath) * This can take about 5 minutes, so add it in at the end of the day if your out of time.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Daily Mini Practice.
Sit comfortably and go where it's important: To Your Breath
Take a moment to acknowledge that you are breathing and be grateful.
Take a moment to acknowledge that you have taken this time with yourself and check in.
On your next inhale take your breath to the places that might feel stuck, and exhale.
Exhale out. Whatever should not be in.
Come to childs pose - stay for 5 breaths
DownDog - 10 breaths
High Plank on your inhale
Down Dog on your exhale
Inhale raise your right leg, bend your knee and twist open to the right
(be sure to keep your left arm engaged - look underneath your left arm to facilitate this)
Keep your right leg raised, come into 1 legged dog
Exhale, step your right foot forward
Inhale: High Lunge - 5 breaths
Exhale your finger tips to frame your front foot
Inhale - two straight legs - Parsvottonasana
(be sure to move your right hip back and your left hip forward)
4 breaths here.
Exhale Low Lunge - forearms on the inside of your right foot - 3 breaths
Exhale - keep your forearms on the mat, step your right foot back - forearms plank.
3 breaths
On your next exhale: forearm dog - 2 breaths
Inhale forearm plank
Exhale - regular plank .... Vinyasa
Switch Sides- end in Down Dog
On the end of your next exhale step or lightly jump to the top of your mat
Uttanasana - forward standing bend.
Inhale raise belly chest/ Exhale Bow over straight legs
Inhale up/Exhale Bow all the way down.
3 Sun Salutations
Down Dog
Inhale/Exhale step your right foot forward bring your left knee to the ground - Thigh stretch
Release - Runners Stretch
Down Dog 2 breaths
Switch Sides end in Down Dog
Childs Pose
Lay on your back for a supine twist on both sides
Savasana.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
The Sattvic Practice on Halloween
Friday, October 30, 2009
Take it off the mat today... Donna Jackson
Thursday, October 29, 2009
10/29 Practice
Today, if you come to the Joint you will receive another gift. Place this gift at the center of your heart and get cozy.
Sit or Lay. Maybe set an alarm for 5 minutes.
Join the Inhale and Exhale in a seamless wave. Begin each inhale and exhale in your low belly and move the breath in and out of the whole upper body. Ride this wave of breath as you contemplate your gift. Let the image or word permeate each inspiration and give great space on your exhale.
After 5 minutes Journal what may have arose during your contemplation.
Take Down Dog for 5 breaths. Option to kick up to a Handstand for as long as you like.
Take a standing forward bend with a shoulder stretch.
Sit for Janu Sirasana on right and left.
Agni Stambasana and Ardha Matsyendrasana on both sides.
Return to your seated or laying position for a little savasana.
End with a thought of gratitude.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Delicious Hip Opening for a Rainy Evening
What can you let go of so that you can more fully embrace your own light and power?
Low Lunge (deeper option: forearms down; come onto the outside edge of your right foot; allow your right knee to fall open to the right)
Vinyasa
Warrior 2 on right; hold for one minute
Plank; hold for one minute
Vinyasa
Warrior 2 on left; hold for one minute
Pigeon Pose; hold both sides for at least two minutes
Seated Wide straddle
Fire Log Pose
Bound Angle
Savasana
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
To Whom Do You Promise?
The other day Tracy asked me, “When you do something, are you thinking what the other person is going to think of you?” She was specifically asking (in the context of our conversation) if I think what she is going to think of me: will she think I’m sexy, kind, smart, etc? I didn’t think twice before saying, “No.”
Of course there are always parts of us that crave and love the recognition of what we have done (especially if it was for someone else), and there is no doubt that we do the things we do out of our desire to be seen a certain way by loved ones, colleagues, friends, or society. There is something purely gratifying about the external props we get for a job well done. But that is exactly what it becomes, a job when we do things for the praise from others. A job is a transaction, a condition – do this and get that. Fulfill this promise, get a reward: praise, compliment, recognition. “When we live for the fame, we die with the blame,” as my teacher used to say.
When we make our promises to someone (or something) now we are obligated to them, not for our self but for the other. For instance marriage, we make a vow to the other, but really the vow should be to our self. When we make the promise to the other person we feel contracted to fulfill it and when we do, dammit, we want some recognition that we just lived up to our end of the bargain. We stop making the promises to ourselves and are only living other’s promises. We end up needing to be seen, to be praised, to be confirmed by someone other than our self. It becomes an endless cycle of samsara – conditioned experience where everything we are is based on the transaction of life. Life just becomes work.
So when Tracy asked me the question and I answer, “No,” what I said was I do things to make myself the best person, not for the other person. What will make me better will most likely end up being better for the other person or people, animals, universe, but the motivation comes from within. That is I make my promises to myself, and by keeping them I’m truly fulfilled not just gratified by the outcome. It certainly is not easy, but try it. What if the promises you have made so far and the ones you're continuing (and promises can be the same as the actions or choices you make) switches from being for someone, to your self? The odds that you will keep them and grow them and be more fulfilled in the things you are doing will increase greatly, and that will make everyone around you see you more. You will be both confirmed by others, but more importantly you will be affirming your self. Now that is a promise worth keeping!
Monday, October 26, 2009
let it shine
As some of you know I was a bit ill for a while and was unable to join in at the joint for some good ol fashion rockin yoga for, well, about a year and half! I became quite accustomed to my restorative practice, it went something like this: take bath, perferably with alex's lavendar salts but epsom salts and bubble bath were in the rotation too; after bath lay with my legs up the wall and wait for my pounding heart to return to normal. If a nap wasn't the next posture then it was pigeon on both sides and a restorative forward bend. Ah....savasana.
I tried a few classes here and there when I thought my body was feeling good. I remember taking one of Tracy's classes on a Saturday and being on the couch for three days straight afterwards! I did some home practices, steering clear of backbends because they felt awful and set my nervous system on fire. I went back to the above sequence more often than not. I finally got some stamina and started to practice a few times a week, on my own, very carefully. How good it felt to move! The stretches were more nerves than muscles for a while but I was breathing and flowing and sitting in child's pose and aching for savasana. I started taking Donna's basics class. SO DIFFICULT!!!! Gosh, we make these beginners hold poses forever! My legs still aren't capable of the long holds!
This summer I began taking an open class a week. My home practice began to move away from the wall and off the floor. My muscles started to strech, my nervous system at bay. Enter The Promise Land (this is sort of like when Metallica's Enter Mr. Sandman plays during the Yankees games, meaning Mariano Rivera, the Closer, is coming in to finish off the opponent): A 32 day challenge to close a very long chapter of my life.
I still take Donna's basics class on Tuesdays, I am addicted. It is both good for my body and my teaching. I take as many open classes as possible when I a not working. I practice everyday in some shape or form. I even ventured out in New Haven and took a class, GASP, at another studio! It was nice to practice so close to home, something a lot of you feel about Saraswati's. I still take baths and put my legs up the wall (a great practice, ill or not). I still sit in pigeon often and love a restorative practice.
I am enlivened by the promise. The studio's promise to encourage all of it's students to move as he or she is meant to that day on his or her mat. The promise of my fellow practitioners to breathe me through a tough practice. The promise of The Joint's teachers to hold my space sacred for me. So I show up as often as possible. I show up at the joint, on my mat and off it, being as present as I can. I feel gratitude for every stretch that opens me and every pose that challenges me. I am thankful every time I step on my mat for the will to place myself in a posture, breathe there and watch myself unfold. I appreciate every moment I need to take rest and for the times when I feel light and strong and take flight. It's amazing how differently I hold my practice in my life now, how perspectives have shifted, wants and needs adapting. I am not sure I really understood those difference when I was younger, more fit, healthier. This month long Promise Land couldn't have come at a better time in my life. I can honestly say I am happy to have been ill. Like sunshine after rain I am ready to shine.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
The View from where I stand
So, just like we have been taught in our yoga practice; that the riskiest poses, the ones that take great effort, are also the most healthful for our bodies and ultimately, our spirits, so it is with our promises. A promise, or commitment, if meaty enough, once fulfilled often as the potential for life changing results.
However, what keeps coming back to me about this whole journey of The Promise Land, is the scope of our promises. Just like Sarah, Liz, Vicky and so many of us have said – you gotta keep it simple and you gotta do the work.
Sometimes it feels as if these big, grand sweeping vistas of promises (and intentions) are just that – Grand. They’re too big and esoteric and expansive and seemingly too risky to get to. It doesn’t mean they are not attainable.
You can look out across a field, or a sweeping plain, and be drawn into the expansive, endless horizon and all the possibilities that it presents in your metaphor, or you can take a moment and look down at your feet. You can look down at the ground beneath you and see the phat (I have always wanted to use that word as I expand my American vocabulary) blades of grass & the sea of dandelions and ladybugs (if you’re in Wilton of course) and all the action and activity at work, going on to create the possibilities that exist in that horizon. But they have to exist together.
So many of us spend so much time looking at the ‘big picture’, going for gold – staring at the horizon thinking of all the possibilities. Our ‘promises’, or our intentions, can sometimes be written in that horizon and yet, if we just spent a little moment bringing our attention to the ground beneath us, staying close to what we can touch we will see such great beauty, and intelligence and just as much possibility.
It is in the eyes of your children. It is in the smile of a stranger. It is in the kindness you bestow on someone you didn’t want to. It is in turning off your cell phones and listening to the birds (or ordering your coffee and actually engaging your barista). It is in stopping and asking yourself about your day, not waiting for someone else to ask you. It is in resisting the urge to talk negatively about someone else and focus on something beautiful about ourselves. It is in stopping in front of that homeless person and looking at him/her in the eye, and saying hello. It is actually stopping to take a breath.
I made a promise to get really clear on what I want in life (and in my days) and then ask for it. That is a big promise, and it has all the fixings to be vague and esoteric but I am starting at my feet. I am working every day at bringing my focus, and my attention to the ground beneath me. I will look up at the sweeping views, the horizon – that has its place – it all exists together - but I just start with what I want for Breakfast ;)
I have quickly realized that what I want doesn’t always present itself for me to ask for it, sometimes the work comes in me saying no, and sometimes the work is someone else’s no to me, but I have to trust that both are always my Yes. I am staying within sight of my possibilities, my promise, but my work is on the ground. Beneath my feet. In my heart. And that can be the riskiest pose of all.
I read this in class yesterday and this is one of my favorite excerpts from one of my favorite books: The Last Song of Dusk by Siddharth Dhanvant Shanghvi
‘In some fundamental way, we are all in total control of our destiny. Because destiny is what we build each day with our correct action. With our work, our Dharma, with the actions that are in complete abeyance to the Law of our Being. Now that’s precisely what makes it so crucial that you should never again see your life in terms of one singular existence, but rather try and imagine as if it were like the water…….see that rain? Well our life is like the water that tumbles from the sky and into the stream….and then some day, the stream arches into the river. Running with a mad fever, this river heads for the ocean. Where it rests and plays. See? But before you know it, that same bead of water will rise up from the ocean’s chest and soar into the great old sky to become the cloud it came from…and so, life starts over & over again. Thunder unfrees the drop, lightening announces its return and the earth sighs at its inception…oh, the old sky we all are, and the ocean we will always be’
Lyn G.
Dot-Dakshana
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thinking it through…
It is so common in our culture, particularly the lives we lead as busy east-coasting-Fairfield-county-goers, to talk the talk. We are great at making the gratuitous promise. Not to say there isn't "intent" (more on that in a moment) but rather we speak without consideration. If we remember that our thoughts and words carry as much weight as our actions we might actually speak more thoughtfully. You don't run across the street without looking both ways nor should you speak without contemplation. This is a hard lesson for a blunt-talking Italian girl. I think my father put it best most recently, “you need a filter.” So, when considering my promises, my conversations, my words, I try my best to think before I speak, not only about my own words but the reactions the words may have. On another front, as my life coach said, “You need a calendar.” Well, I have a calendar; I just need to use it. Some of the most mundane promises are the ones I have failed at, the “I’ll be there” promises to which I failed to keep because I forgot to write them down or didn’t realize my inability to keep such promises out of sheer over-scheduling. But “I’ll be there” are some heavy words and can mean so much with a little follow through.
Promiseland Checklist
Filter: almost fits, hard to replace the "off the cuff" look I've worn forever.
Calendar: Check, blackberry is a very helpful little tool.
Intentions clear: hmmmm…
I wish the whole Joint could've had read Lyn's hilarious email to her staff regarding the wonderful excuses we hide behind as "yogins": the full moon, mercury in retrograde, and I am adding INTENTION. I am definitely one of those who overuse the powerful word intention. I use it more as a sarcastic point of reference these days than a truthful process of contemplation. I would need to slow down, breathe deep, let my thoughts calm to fully involve myself in my intentions. When I don’t, shit happens, sometimes I break promises, we all do. We easily move on from a broken promise with the simple excuse of “it wasn't my intention.” Then what were we intending? To prove our inconsistency? To make our word worth zilch? To create an expectation that can't be fulfilled?
I don't believe it is the promise that is inherently wrong, I believe promises can be a powerful tool to help realize one's dreams in the most expanded text and be a better friend on the simplest of terms. It is our process that needs some work. We need to slow down. Let the thoughts move from the jumble of run-on sentences to the well punctuated. Once our thoughts are clearer our words can be spoken with authority. We would make promises we want to strive to keep. We, ourselves, might actually believe what we are saying. Our word would mean something. Our friends would trust us. Our dreams would be reality. It may not start with a promise but the journey towards The PromisedLand is full of them. So how do we slow down and punctuate are thoughts? Great question!
We meditate more. Join your fellow Promis-ers this Saturday. Donna’s Asana Sandwich class will guide you through pranayama and meditation, two invaluable tools to help you make, keep and relish in your promises.
Oct 22nd's Daily Practice
You may already know the sequence for a Sun Salutation A, but here is a recap for you. It is an amazing sequence that you can trust to be healthy and always go back to. Enjoy!!!
Tadasana- Standing at top of mat
Inhale- Urdhva Hastasana (arms extend overhead)
Exhale- Uttanasana (fold forward over acticve legs)
Inhale- Ardha Uttanasana (Lift belly away from thighs)
Exhale- Chaturanga (step or jump as you bend elbows and lower body towards floor)
Inhale- Cobra ( belly backbend)
Exhale- Down Dog (stay for 3-5 breaths)
As you finish your last exhale- walk or hop to top of mat.
Inhale- Ardha Uttanasana
Exhale- Uttanasana
Inhale- Urdhva Hastasana
Exhale- Tadasana
So here is today's "suggestion":
3-5 sun salutations
If time allows: Hold Warrior 2 on each side for 5-10 breaths and then repeat with triangle pose
Child's pose- stay here as long as you want/can with eyes closed and listening to the breath for savasana or lie down.
With love,
Janine
In love and light,
Vicky
POEMS FROM HOLD ONTO YOUR SEAT
David Whyte "A House of my Belonging"
Ok, I have rediscovered the relevance, the sheer potency and beauty of this English poet. Just brilliant stuff on paper- and there are so many that work great for class, as well as evoke a lot of great thought, reflection. I often use his words to jump start me on some concepts, or questions.
Here are the poems I selected among a bountiful collection of great poems:
"All the True Vows"
"The Opening of Eyes"
"It is Not Enough"
Then I read from Dani Shapiro's upcoming memoir, DEVOTION. It will be available in a few months, and the only reason she graced me with a copy is because she happens to be my college writing teacher way back when, and she is a student of the Joint as well as a beloved friend to Mitchel and me. Talk about holding onto your seat... the book is flooded with a sharp, honest, tender relevant spiritual seeking that is so personal to all of us. I could have read the whole book and enraptured you with the truth of her experiences. The experiences and questions we all have as we take our seat in this quest to live a meaningful life, to make sense of our choices, to ask ourselves the question, as Dani writes, "what is to be done?"
If you would like me to write out the section I read about Faith, let me know and I will be happy to oblige.
Happy poetry hunting.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Restorative Night Cap
My love affair
The build up to it during a class or during my home practice makes me pine for it and want to go back to it over and over again. It's like waiting for that kiss at the end of a date; you spend the evening enjoying and learning about someone and can't help but hope that it ends with something intense, like an amazing kiss(or more????). The time on my mat is the same; a time of enjoyment and self discovery with a UD very often being the climatic point of the practice.
I have probably learned the most about my body from UD than from any other pose. I have learned what areas of my body are strong and what needs more attention and what areas need opening. And this goes beyond just the physical, UD has been there for me through thick and thin and has even brought me to tears on many occasions, opening me up to a deeper part of my soul.
UD keeps me in the moment, knowing that I have to work my body, mind, and heart as a unit in order to truly reap the benefits of it. I wish I could remember this when it comes to my husband sometimes. There have been times that I have actually found myself up far longer than expected or actually moaning from the rush of emotions and physical sensations (ok, another comparison to an intimate relationship!).
There is such an art in forming this pose. Like the stroke of a paint brush, each move works together to create the final picture. It makes me feel beautiful, inside and out.
It is only appropriate to be called wheel not only for it's visual comparison. As we move through our lives we are constantly turning, facing new experiences but our core, the center of the wheel stays put.
I am sure someone else could easily argue another pose as their pose of passion, but for me it is definitely Urdhva dhanurasana! So, my husband is going to have to accept this love affair because I am not willing to end it!
A Promise of Faith & Some Thoughts on Meditation
Hmmm.... I thought to myself, not being Buddhist but being a person who spends a lot of time meditating and practicing the art of freeing my mind from habitual thoughts that stem from insecurities and fear, is this goal actually attainable? Is this promise of being free and happy and unencumbered by anguish, a promise that wasn't meant for me? Does it set up an notion that if I can't 'meditate' myself into a state of freeing my mind where I am completely happy, then I've failed? After all, I spend a lot of time meditating. I make great effort to free myself from fearful thoughts. Hell, I've made incredibly courageous life altering decisions after deep meditation and contemplation. Recognizing that I have the ability to make choices that might not be easy (like the Siddhartha sitting under the bodhi tree being attacked by Moras), but that will give my life more meaning if I persevere.
After sitting with this for a while, I realized that maybe its not the promise of something 'attainable' like freedom from suffering that keeps me meditating and practicing yoga but just maybe it is in-fact the promise of a journey that keeps me coming back. The journey into myself and the getting to know and experience myself. Not a promise of 'happiness' but a promise of recognition and a promise of learning and experiencing all of it- the sorrow & the pain, the love & the joy. All of it a choice and none of it an obligation.
Donna Jackson
20. What are the things that would take you out of your comfort zone?
Yoga on the mat is a metaphor, a practice for how we want live off the mat. So this is how it goes: no, today I won’t go into Laghu Vajrasana, my shoulders aren’t open enough; no, I can’t do a headstand without the wall; no, I don’t have enough power in my back leg for Visvamitrasana, and the list goes on and on – We’ve all been in those situations before, the feeling that we just don’t have it in us, yet. This is not to say never, that we’re not determined to get there eventually. And it’s not about pushing yourself or giving 110% of your effort (B.T.W. which is 10% too much) or to power through it.
Instead, what if it’s about expanding our boundaries a bit, maybe to us giving 90% feels like 100% because we’ve been in it so long that it becomes our comfort zone?
If you can’t grow, expand, test, your boundaries with something or someone you love, where it’s safe to explore, how are you ever going to be able to tap into that inner source for growth, expansion, strength when you’re in a compromised experience, when you need to be able to see all the possibilities?
Yoga is your lab and the joint is your playground, so get playful on your mat, maybe this is the month you come up into handstand at the wall, or in the center of the room. Maybe this is the month you… who knows? The possibilities are all there, inside you, you just have to know they’re there, trust in it.
Also, as my 12 year old told me today, ‘If you work out of your comfort zone so often it eventually becomes your comfort zone.’ Ahh, out of the mouths of babes.
Wednesday's Practice
Keep it Simple
And then check in. Liz often talks about having a check-in buddy, which I love and don't do often enough. If you already have a buddy to check in with, great. Know their promise and ask them a question today that goes beyond, "How's the Promiseland going for you?" Ask them about their promise, specifically. If you don't already have a Promiseland buddy, you'll see plenty of beautiful yogins carrying around a Promiseland journal. That's the signal to jump in - introduce yourself. Make today simple - and maybe you'll find yourself delightfully surprised in its fullness.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
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Tuesday Practice
Monday, October 19, 2009
A Promise to myself: Slow Down :)
Welcome to my internal world :) My mind can take on a life of its own, thinking a million miles a minute about all sorts of ideas, goals, plans, “to-do’s” and where I am headed in life. When my mind runs wild, I often feel signs of tension, stress and anxiety about all the things that I should do or could be doing. And sometimes, I start to take action on these things filling my schedule with stuff… For the most part this behavior has driven me to be, what our society considers, a very pretty productive person. However, what I have realized is that while I am planning for the future, the opportunity to enjoy the little moments in life is passing me by… Don’t get me wrong, I have plenty of fun and lots fulfilling moments in life, and I laugh a ton... but I believe I would have even more meaning in my life if I could just slow down a bit.
This week at the studio both Tracy and Mitchel, in different ways, spoke about the notion of slowing down in order to make each moment more sacred. I find such relief in this notion. Fortunately, I can slow down while I am on my mat at the studio. I can breath, like really breath. I can feel how precious each moment is with out the urge to look to the future.
Now how can I take this off my mat? How do I slow down when I leave the studio? How do I bring more meaning to each moment in the real world? My promise to myself is to give it a try. For me, for now, the first step is just bringing a sense of awareness to this tendency so that when I find myself getting “busy” or going too “fast”, I notice it. Once I notice it, I will try not to judge myself for it. Instead, I will take a break and breath for a few moments. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
Any thoughts, ideas or comments are welcome and appreciated!
Hugs-Kt
Practice for Monday
Once you're home, roll out your mat and take Downdog. Notice your breath now, especially that space between the exhales. Make the inhales and exhales last.
Right foot forward, low lunge.
Left fingertips down, right arm up for a twist. 3 slow breaths
Release right hand down and turn your right foot in, left foot out so they are parallel, folding, prasarita padottanasana, 5 slow breaths.
Turn left foot open, right heel up, low lunge. Raise left arm up for a twist. 3 breaths.
Turn feet parallel, folding, prasarita paddottanasana (option to clasp hands behind back for shoulder stretch). 5 breaths.
Turn right foot forward and step back high plank.
Lower down to belly.
Cobra, five slow breaths.
Down Dog.
Right foot forward, lower back knee. Runner's stretch.
Stretch right knee forward. Bend left knee and grab hold of foot with left hand. Thigh stretch in a lunge (take thigh stretch on belly if the lunge is too much).
Step back to downdog and switch sides.
Right food forward, triangle pose.
Step back to plank and lower to belly.
Cobra, 5 slow breaths.
Downdog.
Step Right foot forward, triangle pose.
Step back to plank and lower to belly, cobra, downdog.
Left foot forward triangle pose.
Step back to plank and lower to belly, cobra.
Lower knees to floor, thighs parallel, virasana (hero's pose).
Supta virasana as option.
Close your eyes, listen to your breath. What about the breath is similar to when walking, jogging? What in breath is different?
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Sunday's Practice
Downward facing dog (5 breaths)
Walk to the top of your mat
Uttanasana (5 breaths)
Inhale rise up to Urdhva hastasana
Release your hands by your sides - Tadasana
1 Sun salutation ending in downward facing dog
Right leg forward - low lunge (option to keep hands framing right foot or both hands inside and lower down to forearms)
Press back three legged dog (right leg lifts)
Right leg forward - Parsvottanasana (two straight legs, both feet point towards top of your mat)
Press back three legged dog (right leg lifts)
Right knee forward - Pigeon Pose
Downward facing dog
Repeat on the left side starting with low lunge
From downward dog inhale forward to high plank
Exhale lower down to your belly
Belly thigh stretch on each side
Cobra (5 breaths)
Roll over onto your back
Bridge pose (5 breaths)
Full body stretch (arms overhead & feet flexed)
Hug your knees into your chest
Roll up to sit
Upavistha konasana (legs open wide, feet flexed, bow down between your legs)
Baddha konasana (soles of feet together, knees out wide)
Lie down in supta baddha konasana or shavasana or stay seated if you have a few minutes for a meditation
Meditation suggestion: As you sit with your breath, think of a moment this weekend where you or someone you witnessed felt complete joy. Feel the warmth this brings to you. Focus on sending this warmth and love to someone in need (yourself or others!).
Enjoy your evening.
Namaste.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
correction to the practice -oops
Enjoy...
Saturday Practice - no weight baring
It's been a beautiful beginning (so many beginnings are) to our month long Joint adventure here on our way to the Promiseland. So, for today's practice: If you haven't made it to the mat, or your motivation is on the low end, then spend 3 - 5 minutes doing the following:
Start in pigeon pose (a good 5 breaths or so)
switch sides
lie down and do supta padagustasana (lying on back holding back of straight leg)
switch sides
breathe in supta padagustasana (lie on back with knees bent a and souls of feet together)
Stay there at least one full minute. eyes closed.
Om.
Resolution vs. Promise
Resolution defined: firmness of purpose. Firmness of purpose? By that definition alone it almost seems as if we are set up for failure from the start. It seems boundried, and, the boundaries are fixed, meaning there’s nowhere to go. That’s not yoga’s intention, yoga asks you to move within your boundaries, but to know they are not fixed, they are always expanding and always changing, growing, just as you ebb and flow so do the boundaries you define yourself with, maybe this time is a time to challenge those boundaries a bit, maybe it’s a time to explore securely within them. Know that a promise, well that’s something quite different then a resolution indeed. It’s an indication of future excellence, a declaration of something that will be done. It’s hopefulness. So whatever promise it is that you’ve made to yourself this month; realize: A promise is an affirmation. Yoga is an affirmation; yoga’s purpose is to affirm life – your life. Let the promise be the yoga.
Remember though, the funny thing is - is that resolution starts with good intentions, it’s something to be resolved, to transform by any process – to clear away, in essence : to make space – optimal space, and, isn’t that yoga’s goal? So I ask you this - Can you be resolute in your promise? That’s what yoga asks after all………